Things were going great, and to be perfectly honest my son has the best of everything, we were financial able to do it, I was able to leave my job and start my own business, we were able to go on a family holiday twice a year, just as we were all settled, then G-D only knows what went through my husband’s mind and he hit me with the question: Can we have 1 more child?

Congratulations its twins – I’m sorry WHAT????

LOL, ok let go back to the beginning.

My Name is Tenille Greenspan and I am the owner and founder of Kinderlove. I started Kinderlove in 2014, It was my dream.

But most importantly I am a mom to my gorgeous almost 3-year-old son and wife to my very supportive and loving husband. I was always happy to be a 1 child family, now days times are tough, and I wanted to give my family everything from 100% of my love and attention to being able to go on amazing family holidays. My husband and I both come from 3 children families- myself being the eldest and him being the baby.

Things were going great, and to be perfectly honest my son has the best of everything, we were financial able to do it, I was able to leave my job and start my own business, we were able to go on a family holiday twice a year, just as we were all settled, then G-D only knows what went through my husband’s mind and he hit me with the question: Can we have 1 more child?

My first reaction was NO. Now before I am judged and thrown to the wolves let me justify my answer.

Having a child is the hardest thing I have ever done- mentally, physically and emotionally- while I love my son with every ounce of my being- it was hard. The first 3 years are a nightmare- you are filled with self-doubt, guilt, happiness, depression, anxiety and so many more emotions. I remember when I had to go back to work, there were times I just couldn’t wait to get out of the house, and as soon as I pulled out of the drive way I would burst into tears because I wanted to be with my baby, and I felt like the worst mother in the world. And then PND kicked in.

OMG!

Fast ward to when my son turned 2 and things got much easier, he had a nice bed time routine, our marriage turned a new leaf, and we were a happy home in perfect harmony – well most of the time and when it wasn’t I would drink a glass of wine and it would all be ok. Why the F*ck would he want to change that???? And after long discussions and again the guilt of a mother- I was brain washed into believing that it was the right thing to do to, my son needed a sibling as he was getting older and was getting lonely and my husband really really really wanted another baby.

I gave in.

After two months of not actively trying, I fell pregnant. I was shocked and happy at the same time. I noticed something was different about this pregnancy and I couldn’t not quite put my finger on it, it just seemed bigger and faster and more advanced.

So in typical mom style I sat down with a cup of tea and started searching google. And it came with some answers about a second pregnancy doing that bla bla bla I had called my gynea and booked an appointment for when we were around 8 weeks.

Anyways as the time passed, it just had this strange feeling, like something wasn’t right. While sitting the waiting room, hubby and I were talking and he said- wow, image it was twins? I stared at him in utter disbelief- why the hell would you say something like that? What a stupid thing to say.

To be honest twins was my biggest fear, when people told me they were expecting twins- it actually broke my heart, I knew how hectic it was with with one, just image how it was with two.

Our Doctor comes out and off we go to the examination room to meet our little peanut. Lots of excitement, I underdress, hop on the bed, Doc sets up, while he and hubby are having a long chat- they get on so well, the two of them had a blast when I gave birth to my son, they had go pro cameras and cracked jokes throughout the entire delivery. (But that Is for another whole other story.)

So while they are joking and chatting away, I’m looking at the monitor- and I couldn’t believe what I just saw! OMG Doc is that 2 babies?- what is going on? Is the screen mirrored? Dead Silence- he has a look, looks at my husband looks and me and says WOW- congrats its twins!!! That’s impossible, we don’t have twins in the family, and I wasn’t on any fertility!!!! Again I start crying and my husband was grinning from ear hole to asshole.

Somehow this was his fault- and I was mad at him. There were so many emotions – happiness, stress, shock, anger, excitement. But that is all over now, and there is nothing but absolute happiness.

We made our official Facebook and Instagram announcement just a little over 12 weeks, while we never got 11 million likes (That thunder stealing bitch) we were still chuffed by all the love support and excitement. And then the announcement that the Greenspan twins were boys.

I think the best part of it all was the new nick name my husband was given by all his mates; “the golden sword” Since it was announced that he was a creator of 3 sons, he has been chest out and stomach in. That alone has made it worth it.

This week we celebrate our 26-week mark and moving into our 3 trimester, the nursey is getting started, I have got a few items for my hospital bag, we have had the 4D scan and we feel that while chances are we will have a full house and very empty pockets, we are nothing but beyond blessed.

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